Levi & Roen,
As our time being connected as one nears an end, I find my heart skipping a beat at the realization that one of the most memorable days of my entire life is a week (or less) away. I never thought my insatiable curiosity could withstand a potential 38 weeks of suspense, and frankly was not confident my body could nurture you both to term
With two babies due for arrival very soon, I figured it was about time to tackle the freeze-ahead meal prep that I had frankly been dreading for obvious reasons…I’m pregnant, tired and have barely had energy to cook even ONE dinner on a regular week night. I’ll admit right up front, this was an overwhelming task at 34 weeks pregnant with twins, but much like what I hear about labor and birth, it’s now just a blur…and all I am left with is the fabulous result. 
/Forgive me friends for not updating sooner! I have not fallen off the face of the earth…just face first into my (mound of) pillow(s) more frequently. :) I am officially 229 days pregnant today (32 weeks +5) and in that time a lot has changed, like the size of my pants…
Welp, according to my nifty new pregnancy app, I am 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. Maybe? Sort of? Really??!!! Tomorrow is our very first ultrasound, or as my nurse called it, a “placement scan”. I’ve been warned in advance that we may not see much, as it’s still early on…ya know, poppy seed early. At the very least, they will be looking for an intrauterine gestational sac (or dare I say sacs) to confirm that life is perhaps (hopefully) growing. My stomach is in knots, 50% nerves, 50% constipation (the struggle is real).
Ingredients:
6 Positive Pregnancy Tests
2 Slices of Worry
1/3 Cup Excitement
1 Tbs of Guilt (Spread Thinly)
Sounds like something they only serve at the Diner for Infertiles, huh?
This is the part where I’m supposed to be excited, right? The reality is, I feel the complete opposite. I went for my first beta yesterday at 9dp5dt (or 14dpo). I was planning on keeping it a secret, in hopes I would have good news to share with family and friends. Well, the news was underwhelming. My nurse called to say the test was positive “congrats!”, followed by “your beta came in at 27.5, let’s be cautiously optimistic”.
Even though I haven’t been trolling Google to fact check every cramp, fart, or wave of nausea I’ve been experiencing, I’ve kept track of my symptoms during my 2WW. I’m not sure if this list will help an IVFer in the future, or just become another page in my chronicles entitled “things I felt when I made myself believe I was pregnant”. Either way, here it is:
